this stays here.
This stays here. I don't care who you are. I don't care what you beleive... And most of all I don't care what it is you think of me. So don't put comments on here like, you should talk to someone, or don't do it people love you. I don't give a shit. I did something horrible and now I want out. But I don't want to kill myself, cause I said I wouldn't. Now does anyone passing through this site, know of any hitman, that is willing, if paid, to kill his employer...
posted by Poetic_bum at 9:54 p.m.
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I cheated... I don't know if I am serious... I am not grabbing for attention though... Do you know of any?
I told my girlfriend what happened, cause I couldn't sleep that night. She dumped me... I don't blame her... But I hate myself for it.
I understand, and I don't envy megs's position. I know it hurt her, and I know I betrayed her trust. As for the other girl, it was me and megs's good friend... some friend hey. Why I did it, I don't know. And I was honest. I told her the morning after. I felt so guitly I couldn't sleep. And this isn't feeling sorry for myself, quite the opposite. I feel very guilty, and want out. I screwed up and cheated not only on my girlfrind, but onmy life, for make no mistakes, I was living for her. Which mystifies me even more of why I did what I did.
I am truely sorry for your moral dilemma. It must have been very hard for you to deal with it. But am not a jerk. I have met only one person who has called me a jerk. And now meghan mihgt. I am not a nice guy either though. I think i am somewhere in between and I did a jerk thing. One, in my defence. But yes I should suffer, and trust me I am. I know I could not ever, and I mean ever cheat on someone again. For this feeling of guilt WOULD kill me. I have just started to actualy eat again. and I still drink... a fair amount... Not that I am drunk, but it does help keep the food down.
And again I will say, I was honest. The only thing i didn't tell her was with who. Not that didn't want to, or that I really couldn't, but because I think I was so... emotional... That i forgot to. I told her friends though... Does that make it easier for you to call yourself my friend?
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