My Pain of Your Performance

Pain breaks at my heart like a bomb,
It torments my breath, and makes me cry.
It’s explosion reverberates my mind like a gong,
And all I want to do is die.
But I can’t because a promise made,
To a debt that can never be paid,
And so here I will lie in tears.

You avoid my love, and drown my affections,
Find my heart, and sever my connections.
You kiss and give me hope,
Only to turn the cold shoulder,
And show me that I’m a dope.
Who will never grow any older.

And so I ponder if you ever felt what I feel,
The bitter embrace of sorrows kiss.
You have never heard a song’s healing meaning,
But yet, you still listen to all of this
Can you ever see the pain you cause?
Or do you just perform and approve of your applause?
Do you even care of what people think?
Or are you ok to be the slime that is found under the kitchen sink?

You can have me acting like your lap dog with just a wink of your eye?
And yet, you just sit there and allow me to die.