Mistakes... I hate them...
I love my girl friend, and yet I keep on trying to mess up. I stop myself before its too late, but if someone ever saw what I was doing they might not know that. They might think that I was being unfaithful, and in part they are right. For though I have never had a relationship past friends with any girl, and I have not "fooled around" with anyone, I still come close. I hate this. What am I doing? I have something so pure and something so amazing and yet I come so close to ruining it. Are all males like this, who are not able to get any. I love. And thats the only thing I think that stops me from hurting her. Thats the only thing stopping me from "fooling around". I never will fool around this I know. And yet I for some reason like knowing that I am so close to if I want.
posted by Poetic_bum at 10:13 p.m.
4 Comments:
Thanks, but does it really make a deference weather or not I DO anything or not. By having this struggle my love for my girlfriend (and she is very special) is weakened do to the lustful state of my mind toward other women. What seperates me from other men is not, aleast in my mind, the fact that I have not done anything, for with my mind and heart I already have cheated on her several times. What speperates me from players, or so I think, is that I have not the courage to tell my girlfriend that I have these problems, atleast not to the same extent that I do. So what is worse, a man who has a fling but stays true to his girlfriend with his heart, just not his dick, or a man how is too afriad to do anything even tell the only person in the world it matters to that he has this struggles?
May I ask how old you think I am? And possibly how old you are?
Hahaha, I'm not offended, at all, and yes I am about that old. But if you will forgive me in saying this, you can not be much older then 30, and that is the upper limit. Anyway I was not offended, and I was worried, so thank you for your advise.
Hahahahaha, thankyou for your adivce, but I can not beleive you as a old spinster or old lady. I am sorry. But the advice is appertaited.
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