Time to come to grips.

I guess it's time to come to grips. The relationship, that started as a fling, then went to friends, then to a lot more, is over. At first it was apparently my emotions and the insecurities attached to them that drove us into the rough patch. But I was able to take care of them, and me and her spent about two hours... maybe... with each other and a couple of our friends. She was cold, and mostly polite. I also got the impression that she didn't want to do this anymore. It's hard to deal with, but that's fine. I can understand. But, I HATE being blamed for something that’s not my fault. My emotions and insecurities where taken care off, but I can't make everything work alone, and that’s ok. She has life to live, and I hope that she has fun living it.

I know that it takes two peoples efforts to make something work, and I guess I am just frustrated. I wanted this to work so much, but apparently not. If she ever called, and wanted it to work, I would give it shot. I would go down for a visit at first, and if that went good, I'd come down for another. Then another, and if everything is great, I'd move BACK down there. But I think the chances of her calls are slim to nil.

So its time to start mending. But I hope you know that I will always feel for you, and for you, it's never too late.